I wish

I haven't really got much to say about my next poem. It was written right at the beginning of my grieving journey, and like I've said on numerous occasions, poring my heart out on paper was the only way for my emotions, thoughts and feelings to escape. Even in my darkest days of heavy drinking (and there was a lot of them) alcohol could not release me from all that anguish and heartache. I tried so hard but it was the only thing that made me sleep.
I think everyone can relate to my words... I wish...

I wish.

 

I wish that I could turn back the clock.

When everything was fine

Back to when we were happy.

If only I could turn back the hands of time.

 

Then it wasn’t an effort to smile.

It was a natural thing to do.

But in a split second you were gone.

I simply can’t come to terms with what happened to you.

 

To not have been there for you.

Not to be able to pick you up when you fall.

Powerless to make you better,

Is the most painful thing of all.

 

I know you are in a better place.

I know that this is true.

But a big void has appeared in my life.

I just cannot help missing you!

 

Life is so precious, we don’t know what’s instore,

Our jokers are running wild.

We have no idea what’s around the corner.

No preparation for losing a child.

 

Life is too short to waste.

We never know when He will call,

Our name when His timings right,

So make sure that you live it to the full.